Monday, July 17, 2006
[11] What's going on?
things are not as smooth as it should be, i guess. first was mx, then now her. i suppose the latter is not very happy with me. but for what i dont know. china trip? friends beside us? my friendship with karl? i really dont know. feelings tells me that she do like him, but then she dont want to admit it. and she make me feel as if she is so jealous that i am that close with karl. is it wrong to be close with your buddy? i know i am someone without many close friends, one is terri and the other is karl. that's all i have. the only two friends i can really open up to.
anyway, was doing my tutorial just a while ago. came home really late today, 930pm. was helping out with the recruitment of the new cya-s to help with imf. then rush down to the convention centre after the FA test. i think this time round, i really didnt do well. everything do not balance!! what am i suppose to do? i am really tired. i need my rest. i want my darling and my beautiful sleep.
yesterday went out with darling, dad, mum and bro to expo, car-nival. was not really nice. sell only the used and more family cars. the paid exhibitions are much better, not as crowded too. then we came home. was with darling, coz mum wants to go home early to boil soup, so left darling and myself first. then on the way back, i was so tired, i slept in the car. then woke up outside jurong pri school. was at the carpark of my house. talked about him going to ns soon, i cried. dumb, i know. i couldnt control myself. bathe after coming home, then went to sleep for 45mins before dinner. after dinner continue to study for FA, and yet i think i will flank it this time round.
darling, i miss you. how nice if we can just hug each other and sleep till the day breaks. better if can sleep till i have recover from the tireness. going to bed soon. i love you dear.
cheers,
shir
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