Sunday, July 23, 2006
[15] so near yet so far
came back from duty about an hour ago. during duty, was tired. but once darling msg me, i was awake. after logging off, went to filled in the form and pack my stuffs. wanted to call darling downstairs near police pass, quieter there. but then had to stay for debriefing, so called darling still, he have to sleep by 2230hrs. so stand near the pillar to talk to darling. realise that we are actually very near each other yet super far apart. he was able to see the control tower, but not me. i can feel that we are so near, but we cant meet. at least, i controlled myself not to cry anymore. i'm trying to.
after debrief, went to take out contact lens, then waited for jo with karl. he going back with jo. that's why was so late. on the train and at tanah merah, suddenly become so moody. just feel like taking train to pasir ris and go to changi beach to be nearer to darling, but then cannot. what am i suppose to tell mum? on the train back, was listening to my mp3 player and thinking of darling's program tml that he told me briefly. he will be so tired tml. hope he can rest well every night. he needs a lot of rest.
ciao
shir
0100hrs